Once, in a fit of inspiration after reading Khaled Hosseini’s ‘Kite Runner’, I had written a poem called A thousand times over and while the sentiment conveyed through the poem was true at that time, now when I think about it, I wonder if I can do anything even once again, let alone a thousand times!
I don’t find myself inclined to read a book that I’ve already read, once again. While friends tell me how they love a show and watch reruns of it every time it airs, I just can’t understand how they can do it. I can never bring myself to watch something that I’ve already seen.
There was a time when I used to watch some really brainless movies over and over again. But now that I have realized the value of time, I’ve forgotten the art of wasting it without any guilt. In fact, the guilt is so overpowering that it stops me even before I do something, even before it comes into existence!
The only thing that I make an exception for, is music. I can listen to the same song over and over and over again (sorry, just wanted to put added emphasis to show how many times I do it). Somehow I can justify that, as it brings me joy every time I hear it. I feel that is because music automatically creates memories in your mind. And when you listen to music, you’re actually trying to relive that memory or trigger the emotion associated with it (joyous or otherwise).
It must take time for such an association to happen with movies, shows and books. Or maybe, you need to have the right combination of company and atmosphere to etch that moment in your mind. It could also be that, chased by the unrelenting onslaught of time, I’ve become too absorbed in this feverish struggle to make the most of it. So I’m trying to make as many memories as I can, without trying to relive them. As time passes, out of the ones that I have made, those that are most dear to me will stand out (for whatever reason) and hopefully, I’ll be able to enjoy an encore.
P.S. A show that I wouldn’t mind watching again, is House M.D.; a fantastic show that everyone should watch.