I’ve been facing a severe drought of motivation (for my work) for the past few days. This was something that I had faced some time back and wasn’t able to get out of it for nearly a year! All I did was watch TV, surf the internet, procrastinate and do nothing productive.
Something similar is happening to me now and I dread this. I expect that it might get worse unless I do something drastic and break this rhythm of lethargy. This is even more difficult for me because I am usually the one who will be around others, pumping them up and encouraging them to do stuff.
So what should one do when one runs out of enthusiasm for something? I don’t know for sure. I usually just bide my time, waiting for something interesting to come up and get me out of the pits of despair. But this time, I thought I will try something new – I will write about it.
I have discovered (not really the first to do so, obviously) that in the process of writing about something, you are forced to think about it and that allows you to analyze and look at it from a different perspective, that of someone who is reading what you’re writing – a third person.
And that is exactly what is happening right now. As I write this, I am slowly understanding that the root cause of my lack of enthusiasm is my inability to complete the tasks at hand. As they are growing, I am getting anxious and losing the creative impetus that sustains me. Thus stupefying myself with a terrible mix of fear, uncertainty and self-loathing.
I can’t believe it was as simple as that! Hmm.. This actually sort of worked. I guess I’ll just finish some of the things I have to do and sail on the sense of accomplishment that I get from that. How I will focus on it and retain that focus? Well, I wish I knew. Any ideas? :/