She peers at me through the glass..
She keeps me from the world. She is rightly hated.
But as the end of night comes to pass
A lavender twilight awaits, which darkness has created.. for me
I don’t notice. I slumber through the morning breeze.
She runs to her shadows, afraid to wake me and invite my ire
She knows not that my reverie will rudely cease
As the sun slowly moves higher
Soon there is light everywhere, but darkness lingers on
Hoping to catch me smiling as I move under the shade
Darkness, like a doting lover waits, though the day is long drawn
For it’s from this waiting and hating that love stories are made
I hope to drink one day
With men who speak the truth
Whose face is not veiled in any way
Who are immune to their to their hatred and rebukes
We were spineless creatures then. So we are, even now
For is it not of the spineless to shrink..
Into shadows, when opposed? Sweat trickling down their brow
Then, to say not, what they think?
But there are men among men, on the other hand..
Striking valiantly at the heart of deceit
And when, for the just cause, they take a stand..
“The men are here!”, say their foes, and beat a hasty retreat
Their eyes are proud and seeing
Their actions, kind and just
Their language has truth and meaning
They are the ones who we ought to trust
These are not lofty words! They do exist, such men..
And they are gathering as we speak..
Enemies of truth and reason, beware then
A world devoid of your treachery is what they seek.
With Christopher Hitchens, Richard Dawkins and James Randi in mind.
As I see the dark clouds lining
I make a wish and pray
That it wouldn’t rain and spoil the sunshine streaking
Through the clouds today
And like the thousand others I make, I knew
This wish wouldn’t come true
But its just the wishing, praying and hoping
That a helpless me could do
So I just kept staring bravely
Out into the blue
Thinking why the storm has to always come
Without a single clue
But storms do come
Just like rainy days in life
So I fill my heart with the cheer of raindrops
In my days of strife
And then I build some paper boats
To sail through the floods that come
But I never venture out in the cold
For my fingers go numb
So I drop my boats out the window
And set them on their way
I know that the cruel torrent won’t ever,
Let them go astray
I watch as my boats twist and turn
Trying not to come undone
But slowly, all of them perish, like my dreams
Sinking one by one
I know I can’t take it anymore
I really want to break free…
But the shackles of my tamed existence
Keep tugging at me
As it rains outside, my heart spills a tear
But I quietly wipe my eye
My eyes are sore, so just for once today,
I will let the heavens cry
Look ma! Here I am again
Drown me in your embrace and rid me of all the pain
How long will you keep me from the warmth of your chest?
Its only in your arms where I want to rest
Nay! Don’t hide it! Let me feel her silvery hair
How I like to see them glisten as they flutter without a care
Please Ma, grab me by my hand like in the good old days…
Twist my ears and make me swear that I will mend my ways
Teach me to walk again Ma, hold my fingers in your palm..
Make me bow before the Lord, sing to me the morning psalm
Speak Ma! For I cannot, and tell them that your silence bespeaketh your ire..
Stop cruel people! Please don’t feed her to the fire!
Oh God! So many angels you have up there. Please give mine back to me..
Oh Death! Be kind today and my Ma go free..
For though I am old and she is too, I still am her little child
Let me breathe my last in her lap…as she strokes my hair
For there every pain becomes mild
I am the gust of wind
I am the turbulence of the sea
I am the vision of the mind
My word is final decree
I am the pain in life
I am reality
I am the ray of hope
I am imaginary
I am the shadow in darkness
I am the eyes that see
I am the courage that conquers
I am the feet that flee
I run amok in silence
I bloom eternally
I am the macabre fear
I am the life within me
I am the starry night
I am the scarlet tree
I am the kiss of the butterfly
I am the sting of the bee
I am loss, I am failure, I am the end
I am that which will never be
I am victory, I am success, I am the beginning
I am possibility
I am the fabric that makes you
I am the colour in thee
I am your strength and weakness
I am murky sadness and the effervescent glee
I am God
I am with you for eternity
I am you, you are me
I am your imagination set free
I search for meaning…but I find none
I scan the bottoms of the oceans….I scrounge all places under the sun….
But the meaning eludes me…what life means I still know not
It haunts my mind….its a painful thought…
But even after so much introspection….what life means I still know not
I know that I search for meaning…but what that is I know not
I got all that I wanted…..but what I needed…I never got
I had love, I had friends, I had family….but still the meaning of life I sought
One day I want to know it
One day I want to comprehend
One day I want to know the answer
One day I want my quest to end
But I know that though I know a lot
What life means I still know not…
go to the bar
drive ferrari car
Doston se lo udhar
becho ghar dwar
par piyo shauk se cigar…
pite pite mar jaana hai
mummy papa ki dant khana hai
par ciggarette ko jaroor jalana hai
aur doston mein dhuan udana hai
har puff ke saath udaenge zindagi
har shot ke saath lutaenge zindagi
yehi to hai mazza zindagi ka
yehi ek jazza zindagi ka………….
phir ek din us dhuen mein ham
dheere dheere ho jayenge kam
mummy ki ankhein hongi nam
lete hue aakhri dam….
kahenge sab se……
kitna kuch karna tha…
abhi to nahi marna tha…
par dhuen mein udayi zindagi..
botal mein sadayi zindagi…
lekin bhagwaan ne nahi badhayi zindagi…
My mind destroys my resolve
It stirs a storm in the halls of my heart
I could have blown mountains with my breath
Only my mind did not let me start
I sought to fly high in the sky
Though wind was mocking, yet my wings drew nigh
But then my mind let out a sigh..
And I knew that instant….I wouldn’t fly
The courage I had to shed blood and slay
I wished that my crusade could last all day
“How strong he is” I heard people say
But then at the corner, I heard my mind neigh
“Though thou art strong thou art still made of clay..
Don’t orphan your children, let them grow let them play..”
And then I lost my strength and vigour
To survive became my ambition, to live, my only rigour..
I loved to swim the violent seas..
To tame the wildest jungles and do as I please..
And then my mind tamed me one day…
I could not revolt as I had nothing to say
My mind was thinking to make me live
But in return for life, my freedom I had to give..
Then all of a sudden my subdued heart gave a cry..
So I killed my apprehensions and aimed for the sky…
Today there is nothing that I am afraid to try…
I live life as if tomorrow I may die..
Raindrops dot the sky..My heart heaves a misty sigh
What I look for is out of sight
All that I can do is…. Watch the raindrops’ flight
How cheeky this raindrop is…
It soars out of the blue and kisses my sweetheart…
But All I can do is..
Watch nature’s work of art
The seven colours of the rainbow call out to me
Why I don’t recognize them today.. they query
But Colours are things that I see..
When with a silent smile creeping over her face…she makes them merry..
How lucky the skies are…they always get to see…
The things that my eyes cry to see…
But all I can do is…
Wipe those tears and pray that she come back to me..
Shayar ka Andaaz….
Muskurana bhool gaye hum jab aapki hansi nahi dekhi…
Ab to bolne se honth bhi katrate hain…
Kyon ab akele rehte hain aapke bina ….
Kya yehi hota hai jab dil se dil mil jaate hain…
The Sun is moving towards his throne
Far away in the eastern sky He says to the moon..
“All night you have shone…Now its time to say good bye.”
And with that the sun brightens the earth..
And chases darkness away,
Now the earth with glee and mirth..
Cheers the arrival of day
The birds sing and praise the sun
For the strength that he brings”
The Sun is mightier than any mortal”,they say
“He can dust a thousand kings!”
Flattered by these words,the sun,
Beams with over-flowing pride,
He promises, he shall rid them of darkness for ever,
He shall leave it no place to hide…
With that he begins his conquest great..
And goes where darkness may lurk..
He has only one goal and that is to eliminate,
All Sadness,gloom and murk…
But, now the world devoid of all shade..
Gets hotter and unpleasant,needless to say
It could have been a cool and lovely glade
Had the sun’s ambition not come in the way
Although the sun is victorious..
And darkness is nowhere to be found..
No prey nor predator walks the earth
There is silence all around
At last..the sun aware of his folly
Lessens his glorious light
And creatures of the earth console the sun
On witnessing his sorrow and plight
But seeing opportunity darkness returns
To avenge its shameful loss
It comes unnoticed out of nowhere
But causes total chaos
It strikes the sun with its purple blade
And stains the sky red
But the mighty King of planets..
Somehow manages to save his head
“I now retreat” He says
“But, I shall be back, tomorrow again.
And this time my efforts I promise
Shall not go in vain.”
To this darkness replied..”
I shall wait..my noble foe..
Tomorrow you may be more powerful..
But I shall have more tricks to show..”
And thus goes on the duel
Between darkness and the mighty sun
The sun does his job of chasing darkness away..
But it returns as soon as the job is done..
It is that sinister time again
Darker than darkness night arrives,
In its melancholous splendour over the plains
The silhoutted memory of light and joy
The sweet fields and stalks of grain
Now marooned in gloom, a sombre sense employ.
The sound of silence fills my ears
And my heart swells with unfounded fears.
What fiend lurks these murky hours?
What haunts the lands in the light of stars?
Do I imagine or is it true?
In the darkness of hours what secrets brew?
I can hear blood thirsty beasts bay,
A feverish quiver makes me lust for day,
But mysteries of night will never die,
Though someday I surely may…
Arise awake is there the time for slumber??
Enormous difficulties your love has to out number..
Endless heights you shall conquer, but not alone..
In solitude has any star shone??
Go deeper than depth..deeper than the deepest sea..
In search of your love go wherever it may be..
Bend the horizon of emotions with you rigid lust for love..
Don’t fall in love, Just Rise !!
Rise in the eyes of the world..Rise in the love of your eyes !!
Rocking the cradle to and fro
He wipes the trickling off his brow
His shrunken skin glistens, moist
He picks him up and to the sky he hoists
The chuckling laughter of that infant in arms
Fills old Han’s empty heart with mirth, and charms
His drowsy soul with enchanting delight
But only Han himself knows the gravity of his plight
No joy can cure his heartache so grim
Every ray of happiness seems so obscured, so dim
For today he has reached the threshold of end
A mysterious beginning, his mind cannot comprehend
Everywhere there is change, everything is so new
Yet to savour these changes , days seem so very few
He raced back the path of life that he took
He cherished memories, but, one thought came and with grief he shook
As he looked at the new born life in his arms,
He knew now he just had to wait
He now had just one thing to do, Just witness the paradox of fate
And as he left the baby in its cradle, a smile he tried to brave..
For soon..He too shall be in his cradle…
And that cradle shall be his grave…